Just recently I had to have a skin check for the dreaded skin cancer.....
It's just something that "goes with the territory" as we say living in this part of the world with so much sunshine. Although saying that I can remember when I was very much younger living in the UK I would lay and play in the summer sunshine so much that I could ...however revolting it sounds now...I could sit in the classroom and peel skin off of my back I used to get so sunburnt. Where was sunscreen then...non-existent.
It's not until we are older that the damage comes to the surface and returns in skin cancers or such. I've heard it often takes years to show up and cause trouble on our skin. Although I love to see and feel the sun on my body, I remember it well, I do think what those that are now laying on the beach will go through in a few years time. Goes without saying I never lay in the sun now for any length of time. Just enough vitamin D to keep well and healthy.
Does anyone else worry as much as me when going to see a specialist? I suppose we all do but I just seem to go to pieces...lack of sleep worrying...always thinking the worst. This is the time everything will come to an end...ah well it's been good so far so I shouldn't complain. Negative thoughts prevail...
Anyway when I was at the doctors I asked if he could just check my back, more as an afterthought really, as I had a couple of itchy places and with the aid of two mirrors I could see they did look a bit red.
He looked.poked..scratched..and after silence suggested I see a specialist...aahhh the dreaded specialist. When they are unsure it's always off to the specialist! A good thing of course!
Anyway after finding out where I had to go a few days before the appointment I made my lonely way to the office, masked still in these times whilst in there as I was told by the receptionist on the 'phone beforehand, as I waited and filled in the usual forms...then it was my turn,
He was friendly and welcoming so the initial nerves quickly dissipated.
"Can I take look at your back", he asked after going through the doctors referral.
As I did what I was told he stood behind me and...silence... What was he thinking? Is this terminal? Is this really really serious...as my mind went racing ahead.
"You have this...and that" he stated..it sounded bad.."oh and one there"...that sounded worse😧!!
Just book in for a full body check and we'll take it from there.
"Nothing urgent?" I asked anxiously as I put my shirt on again.
There's a couple of "things" we can remove them and ones a little deeper that will have to come off.. he sounded calm in his calm specialist voice...and best of all I felt calm also by this time.
I thanked him for his care...something I tend to do to everyone doctors, specialists, dentist, what else can you really say? So I booked in for the full body scan which is not until July as they are always so busy.
Nothing urgent...wonderful. I felt the years extending in front of me rather than the limited expectations I felt a few hours earlier.
Our minds play so many tricks on us...the stress we put ourselves through with unnecessary worry is immense isn't it. I'm sure that stress, however misplaced, does no good at all...no good for our wellbeing!
I made my way out of the office and onto the street suddenly a weight was lifted from my shoulders...until the next time and the next specialist I guess.
I'm sure there will be...doctors...specialists and many long and happy days ahead to enjoy...hopefully😄😄🙏
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